Its been a while . . . .

So its has been awhile. In fact, I had forgotten about this blog until one of my friends asked why I haven't posted. Well life has been crazy. I got pregnant shortly after starting this blog, then miscarried then end of April. In May we moved 1600 miles so we could work for the summer, in the end of July first of August we came back. We just found new work about a week ago, nothing of which we were looking for. Well my husband was looking for work, but the job that came was unexpected & nothing we were planning on. So for at least the next year, we will be here. Hopefully longer, I don't like moving every 6 months or so. I wish I would report that I have been working hard at my weight loss & that I am down & looking good. Just the opposite to report. My weight is at an all time high - higher than when I was 9 months pregnant with any of my kids. That in return makes my self-esteem at an all time low. As my husband pointed out they shouldn't be at such a close link to each other.

But I have noticed the last week, things that should be easy are hard now. I rode my bike a mile to the neighbor house, in a hurry, so I started to go fast & by the time I reached her house I just wanted to be able to get there. Little things are making me winded. I feel tired all the time. I am making poor choices "just today" & tomorrow I will be better. To bad tomorrow never comes. This is not thriving. This is just surving . . . . this is not reaching my goal. But for today I will try to be good. I mean I will do everything in my power to follow good healthy nutrition. I did Day #1 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I will report on how I did today, tomorrow, when I complete it again.