Its been a while . . . .

So its has been awhile. In fact, I had forgotten about this blog until one of my friends asked why I haven't posted. Well life has been crazy. I got pregnant shortly after starting this blog, then miscarried then end of April. In May we moved 1600 miles so we could work for the summer, in the end of July first of August we came back. We just found new work about a week ago, nothing of which we were looking for. Well my husband was looking for work, but the job that came was unexpected & nothing we were planning on. So for at least the next year, we will be here. Hopefully longer, I don't like moving every 6 months or so. I wish I would report that I have been working hard at my weight loss & that I am down & looking good. Just the opposite to report. My weight is at an all time high - higher than when I was 9 months pregnant with any of my kids. That in return makes my self-esteem at an all time low. As my husband pointed out they shouldn't be at such a close link to each other.

But I have noticed the last week, things that should be easy are hard now. I rode my bike a mile to the neighbor house, in a hurry, so I started to go fast & by the time I reached her house I just wanted to be able to get there. Little things are making me winded. I feel tired all the time. I am making poor choices "just today" & tomorrow I will be better. To bad tomorrow never comes. This is not thriving. This is just surving . . . . this is not reaching my goal. But for today I will try to be good. I mean I will do everything in my power to follow good healthy nutrition. I did Day #1 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I will report on how I did today, tomorrow, when I complete it again.

Official Start.

I am going to do p90x. The lean plan. I am not excited, I am not looking forward to grueling workouts, but I am going to do it. So I am posting weight & body measurements, so hopefully in 90 days we can see a difference. I going to follow a diet. Only one cheat day a week (maybe less, I need to talk to a friend about that. You see my amazing friend is doing a biggest loser challenge & just lost 7 lbs in one week follwing the zone diet. SO I may do the zone diet & p 90x plan. But for now day 1 is over. I will keep you posted, let you know. Right now I better get something done on my house because i am moving slow. I have to keep telling myself. I can do this, I can do this & surely eventually I will believe it. Right??

So far, I have worked out twice this week, and am headed down in about 30 minutes I did P90x on Tuesday, Wednesday, on thursday I kept putting it off & putting it off until the day was over & I didn't do any of it. So I did no sugar on Tuesday & just a taste on Wednesday, Thursday awful. Today I am doing no sugar again. I will let you know how my workout & no sugar thing goes tomorrow. See ya off to finish breakfast dishes & then to my workout. I am also taking body measurements today too. so I will post those.

Okay. It has been awhile too long. I erased all my information from last year & I am starting fresh again. Because it only matters where I am going. So that will be new. I am contemplating starting p90x for a go around. We have friends doing it & they are 100 percent committed. They started their workout last night at 10:30 p.m. because they hadn't worked out yet & didn't want to miss it. That is commitment. So they got me thinking about me doing it. It is one of my goals for this year & if we go back to Montana this year & help with the branding. I want to be tough enough & strong enough to help wrestle calves this year. I don't want to be the chubby lady taking pictures for the mere fact she isn't in shape enough to do anything else. We are lambing out our sheep in a couple of months & taking on up to 500 bum lambs (depending on how many are available.) I want to be strong enough & in shape in enough to do it, and have the energy to do the rest of my household chores without any problems. So today I am not eating sugar & I did my first workout of the P90x Lean program (just in case I decide to go for it). So I will let you know & if I do go for it, I will include pictures & measurements. So you can see the WOW difference at the end.

Our friends are doing it & I know they are determined enough to finish it, and I don't want to be left behind in fat land when they get it all done. I don't want to keep surviving. I want to starting thriving. So for now I better go. But I will give you the updates on my decisions later. See ya