Today & This Week

So yesterday I pulled doubles . I ran in the morning & did the infamous 30 day shred that night. It wasn't too bad, my only problem with working out at night is then I am still awake at 10 instead of tired & ready for bed. I did eat a few (3) oreos. I don't do well when they are sitting at my feet. . . but then I did good for hte rest of the day & made myself sugar -free, fat-free chocalate pudding & ate that for a treat at the end of the night. I watched Jillian Michaels losing it on Hulu . . . it was a nice break & it kind of encourages me. I see people with similar issues & it has me thinking what is my real problem & how do I get it gone.

I worked out Mon twice, Tuesday I just ran, Friday I twice & I have already ran this morning. Now off to make omlettes for breakfast & to tackle me day.

I heard a quote: "Poor people have poor habits" it has been in my mind . . . there is a lot of truth to it. Well kids are calling . . . later .

This was from Yesterday

A note I sent to a friend :

Hey gorgoeous, how is your week going?? I am only half way through the week & I am already struggling. More people found out I miscarried so in comes more sugar. We might be moving (please oh please don't tell a soul) which is good because we would be closer to home, which also stresses me out because we aren't positive what is going on, where we would live, now I have to move again . . . so yeah . . . I had motivation the first day & then it dropped like a lead brick. How do you keep going when you it sound so nice to have but your body & mind are revolting & telling you how you can't so what is one more cookie going to harm. You aren't going to be able to do it, you are already way fat. So how are you ever going to get there?? HOw do you get past that. I worked out Mon, Tues, missed Wed, Thursday, & Worked out this morning. so that is how I am doing . . . how is it on your end of the world? Love ya -

PS Thanks for letting me vent.

So what a last week it has been. I ended up going mid week in for D&C, due to a miscarriage I couldn't pass. So that was physically & emotionally hard. We wanted another baby, but it looks like there is another plan in store for our little family. So I had people dropping off food & goodies to help, and I ate it all. . . . well all the sugar loaded unhealthy stuff.

I feeling better, got on the scales this morning & I am up 2.2 lbs. Not so great. So hard work & self discipline has to come into play here & soon. So I am setting a big goal for myself. I am going to lose 20 lbs by the second weekend in October. 10 weeks, 20 lbs. There is a little get together & I would like to be lighter. So to start my new goal off right, I worked out twice today. I got on my treadmill & walked/run for 30 minutes for a total of 2 miles. Not fantastic but better than the day before. Then this afternoon I pulled out my DVD & did Day #1 of the 30 day shred by jillian Michaels again. I have a good friend who is losing weight as well & that is one things she is doing is working out twice a day. (oh yeah I also ate 8 oreos, not so good, but at least I know how many I ate). So here to another day & hopefully getting it right this time around.

So of my last week, I only made it three days total without sugar. Yep, three only. Not very good, but three more days than the previous week. So here we are at it again, my goals is to beat my three days without sugar. As for my workouts. I did two. Yep only two. Not very great for a woman who needs to lose 2 lbs a week for the rest of the year. Life is good & stressful. Plans might be changing, I am missing a lot of things I used to have, but we don't know what the plans are so we don't know what plans to make. As for eating this week, my cupboards are bare as well as my wallet so the menu will be whatever I can dig through the freezer & cupboards to find & make. But I will try to be better about drinking more water & increasing the number of days I go without sugar & increase my workouts. So farewell for now.

Back from my Trip

I am back from my trip, and I had a wonderful time. We loved it all. I did not workout, or watch what I ate. So I am back up to 182. Now back to hard work if I am going to do this before the end of the year. I am on day three of trying to go without sugar, & I just finished day two of Jillians michaels 30 day shred. Short update, but at least it is an update.