No weigh-in

So I went to weigh in this morning. I actually remembered, but when I stepped on the scale, it didn't work. It shied straight 8's. over & over. I tried multiple times. All with the same result, so I guess as of this morning my weight doesn't matter. I need to lose it, so my goal for today is just to focus on tracking my eating. I will post a picture of my food journal later.. For now we are trying to get out the door to the ranch.

I am Back

To say it has been a while since I have written on this blog is an understatement. In fact, I forgot I even had this blog until I saw it on my friends weight loss blog & I was "oh yeah" that is mine. So I tracked down the long forgotten address & decided to start a new. Well almost anew.
  Here is a quick update on the last years of my life . . . still have a massive amount of what to loose. I had a baby last April, & even though in my mind "I just barely had him" he is officially 8 months old & my excuses of just having a baby, need to be let go. No excuses. My weight is at a high, no surprise there & in the last year we have switched jobs. I think that sums it up. So I downloaded the Lose It App on my phone. Okay I also have the Fitness Pal App, but I need to find friends. & since one of my friends is completely inspirational  is on Lose it I will be too. So I am start tomorrow. Not now, since I have a large bowl of ice cream I must admitt I am consuming "for one last time." So expect more for me . . . until to my weigh in tomorrow . . I am headed to savor one last bowl of sweets before I start to move it.

Its been a while . . . .

So its has been awhile. In fact, I had forgotten about this blog until one of my friends asked why I haven't posted. Well life has been crazy. I got pregnant shortly after starting this blog, then miscarried then end of April. In May we moved 1600 miles so we could work for the summer, in the end of July first of August we came back. We just found new work about a week ago, nothing of which we were looking for. Well my husband was looking for work, but the job that came was unexpected & nothing we were planning on. So for at least the next year, we will be here. Hopefully longer, I don't like moving every 6 months or so. I wish I would report that I have been working hard at my weight loss & that I am down & looking good. Just the opposite to report. My weight is at an all time high - higher than when I was 9 months pregnant with any of my kids. That in return makes my self-esteem at an all time low. As my husband pointed out they shouldn't be at such a close link to each other.

But I have noticed the last week, things that should be easy are hard now. I rode my bike a mile to the neighbor house, in a hurry, so I started to go fast & by the time I reached her house I just wanted to be able to get there. Little things are making me winded. I feel tired all the time. I am making poor choices "just today" & tomorrow I will be better. To bad tomorrow never comes. This is not thriving. This is just surving . . . . this is not reaching my goal. But for today I will try to be good. I mean I will do everything in my power to follow good healthy nutrition. I did Day #1 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I will report on how I did today, tomorrow, when I complete it again.

Official Start.

I am going to do p90x. The lean plan. I am not excited, I am not looking forward to grueling workouts, but I am going to do it. So I am posting weight & body measurements, so hopefully in 90 days we can see a difference. I going to follow a diet. Only one cheat day a week (maybe less, I need to talk to a friend about that. You see my amazing friend is doing a biggest loser challenge & just lost 7 lbs in one week follwing the zone diet. SO I may do the zone diet & p 90x plan. But for now day 1 is over. I will keep you posted, let you know. Right now I better get something done on my house because i am moving slow. I have to keep telling myself. I can do this, I can do this & surely eventually I will believe it. Right??

So far, I have worked out twice this week, and am headed down in about 30 minutes I did P90x on Tuesday, Wednesday, on thursday I kept putting it off & putting it off until the day was over & I didn't do any of it. So I did no sugar on Tuesday & just a taste on Wednesday, Thursday awful. Today I am doing no sugar again. I will let you know how my workout & no sugar thing goes tomorrow. See ya off to finish breakfast dishes & then to my workout. I am also taking body measurements today too. so I will post those.

Okay. It has been awhile too long. I erased all my information from last year & I am starting fresh again. Because it only matters where I am going. So that will be new. I am contemplating starting p90x for a go around. We have friends doing it & they are 100 percent committed. They started their workout last night at 10:30 p.m. because they hadn't worked out yet & didn't want to miss it. That is commitment. So they got me thinking about me doing it. It is one of my goals for this year & if we go back to Montana this year & help with the branding. I want to be tough enough & strong enough to help wrestle calves this year. I don't want to be the chubby lady taking pictures for the mere fact she isn't in shape enough to do anything else. We are lambing out our sheep in a couple of months & taking on up to 500 bum lambs (depending on how many are available.) I want to be strong enough & in shape in enough to do it, and have the energy to do the rest of my household chores without any problems. So today I am not eating sugar & I did my first workout of the P90x Lean program (just in case I decide to go for it). So I will let you know & if I do go for it, I will include pictures & measurements. So you can see the WOW difference at the end.

Our friends are doing it & I know they are determined enough to finish it, and I don't want to be left behind in fat land when they get it all done. I don't want to keep surviving. I want to starting thriving. So for now I better go. But I will give you the updates on my decisions later. See ya

So Monday went alright . . .and then we went downhill again. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, I craved sugar & ate it. A lot of it . . .and not just sugar I didn't track anything I ate. I didn't work out any of those days again. I weighed in today 171.4. That is not good, if I don't start doing something I will just go back, so I am focused today. I am just thinking about today. Yeah, I want to lose 9 lbs, but I don't know if I will make it. So I set a new goal for myself: I dusted off some old workout videos that I used 6 years ago when my oldest was first born. I watched what & ate & workout & back then it worked really well for me.  So I decided to go with what i know works. So I dusted off these: Firm

The version I Have it from 6 years ago. But they worked then, they should work now. Mine as well as these promise visible results in 10 workouts. So that is my goal. Just to get my 10 workouts in. Maybe if I start to feel again that my body is getting stronger & that you can see it, it will help bring my motivation back. So that is my focus. Day # 1 is done, and I enjoyed it!! They are kind of fun to do. So . . .here is to another goal. (One should work right/? : ) I still would like to see some lbs drop but I am going to do this first. That & finally finish my eating right book, but I did find the Zone book which one of my friends is doing & now I am debating which is best. Silly me. I just need to choose one & do it, but I will finish reading One of them maybe that will help. So today I started again, which is good. I may have messed up in the past this week, but for today I am doing all right & I think I will focus on just that.